Every now and then life shakes me up..

this is one of those moments!

I don't know how to handle myself, but maybe thats

how it's suppose to be.

Maybe I just need to be myself and be

excited and allow everything to come together.

I'll be scared and paranoid, but hey that's me.

Love me or leave me.. I'm going to be in it with you all the way.

Josh<3

Spring is here

I'm listening to Jack White scream over the speakers in my living room.

Jessika is in the kitchen cooking while my other roommates drink stella and watch

the sun start to set..

I'm ready for hot air and the energy to run my car down dusty dirt logger roads to

start bonfires and have epic nights under the stars.

I'm going to explore washington.. and maybe oregon?

Caves?

Oregon?

August?

A girl could hope

Valentines day is coming soon.

And working where I do and hearing about all the different love stories

and all the gushy mushy bushy stuff..

I want to have someone to share it with. Why would they create a day

built to fail?

Winter is here.

I remember sitting in the sand in July when the heat was cutting away at my skin..praying for a peacoat jacket and a Starbucks coffee with rain pouring down. Now all I want is to be back in the sand. Are we ever happy? Truly madly deeply? haha

I'm ready for Sunshine and this buzzing in my brain to go away.

I haven't blogged in awhile. I have a lot on my mind and haven't been venting it in the most productive way. I need to change and release a lot of thoughts and anger I have towards certain people. I haven't been keeping a healthy mind. I want a more positive outlook on life as well as behavior towards everyday things..even if that means letting go of some people in my life I have had for a long time. Every time I'm around them they bring out the worst in me.. when your friends are suppose to add smiles to your faces not steal them away. I also need to release my anger.. I'm a very happy person and the last 6 months I have been really angry. That's not how I want to spend my life. I need to face these demons in the best way possible.